We have all heard it, "addiction is a family disease" but have we really thought about what this means for us and for our loved ones?
Having a loved one in active addiction is TRAUMATIC to say the least. Watching someone we know and love as they lose themselves is devastating. It is hard to remember and to realize the person that they used to be before drugs took them away from us. Does that person even exist anymore? Is there any way to get him or her back to a place that even closely resembles the person that they used to be? What if they never want to get better?
I do not know the answers to most of these questions except that I know that I must face the realization of one of them. What if my loved one never desires to get better? Is there not one more chance at recovery in her? I don't know but I do know that if she never gets better I need to learn to accept that and live with it.
This will not be an easy task, the sleepless nights of worrying, the stress that kicks in when she doesn't call to check in. The inability to function normally as I relive the moment when in the past police came to my house to tell me of my son’s death and I convince myself they are coming again to inform me of another death (realistically, they will probably just call me). The searching of news on the internet whenever I cannot not locate her, the wondering if they fingerprint her in a morgue will they figure out who she is and call me?
This craziness is reality, not just mine but that of most people who are trying to cope with a loved one in active addiction. What do we do to alleviate this madness? My advice is that we accept what we cannot change and hope for a better future. We learn all that we can about the addicted brain and understand that the recovery of our loved one is out of our hands. We pray to god (if we are praying people) and hope that someday our loved one will stumble upon recovery and that it will take lasting hold on them. What do we do in the meantime? We RECOVER. We stop our existence of dreading that each day may be our loved one’s last and we start living our lives as if it could be our last. We take time for self-care and to enjoy our lives to the best of our ability.
It sounds like a good plan to me.
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